The Almighty Cell Phone...

So I've now gone 24 hours without a cell phone. I know some people have gone much longer but it's so strange for me. What did we do BEFORE cell phones? Oh yeah, I was a kid and didn't need one, that's right. So now that I've been without one, I realize I never hope to be without it again. As a matter of fact, I've CONTINUED to carry around my old cell phone even though it doesn't work...it's a habit, so sue me. We changed our service provider and ported (?) our old numbers to the new cell phones. The problem is, these new cell phones were purchased in Wichita, KS. So I'm currently waiting on FedEx to deliver mine, which will not be received until sometime tomorrow! I've never been one to care what features my cell phone has, all I really care about is: #1) It works #2) I can send/receive texts and #3) well it works! So now we've made the change to a smart phone, my iPhone will be arriving tomorrow and it will take me WEEKS to get used to it. Everyone tells me that once you switch over, you won't go back...we'll see. How did cell phones become such an integral part of our lives?!?!?!

The night of July 25th

So last night we had yet another Wine & Spirits gathering. I have to say, it was a nice time. It's also my last for a while given my move. For those that don't know what I'm talking about, we are basically a group of people with a similar interest that, well, have a get-together every so often just to have a good time. It's probably just an excuse to have a party, but that's ok. So last night, I had the opportunity to hang out with friends....real friends. See, since Seam is gone, things have been hard for me, I just sorta feel alone for the time being. So hanging out with some friends was nice.

As far as the party goes, we had a nice turn out. A lot of new people from work stopped by, which was a nice change of pace; however, were they not to come, it still would have been awesome. I think the point I'm trying to get at, but clumsily stalling is...I will really miss these people. They are my coworkers, my friends who know me for me and will stand by my side regardless. My wish is that by me leaving my job, things won't change too much. I only hope they know that I'll never be the same after having met them...nevermind being without them for 6 months. Mushy right? Well, it's true.


Ok moving on to more bitchy posts...

What is old?

I recently watched a movie that I remembered seeing as a kid. I mean I have no fond memories of this particular flick, just remember watching it a long time ago. Every aspect of the movie...the clothes, the music, the actors...nothing seemed odd or old about them. Suddenly I realized the cars being driven in some of the scenes. Then I realized, oh yeah, this movie is older than I'm thinking. So I hit the "info" button on the remote...it was filmed in 1990. 1990! I know it's obvious but I never truly thought about 19-freakin'-90 being almost TWENTY YEARS AGO! So as time passes...the movies, the music, the ideas, the innocence of everything back then just become "dusty". So what is old? I mean if these things never seem "old" to me, then what is old? I guess it's something I've begun thinking about since I'm turning 30 soon and while 30 is certainly NOT old, its strange that the older you become, the older older gets.

Ya know...sometimes, you just have to wipe off the dust and suddenly everything becomes new again.

The great debate...

**WARNING: Mindless and a little silly!**


Ok, well this debate is all in my head. It's also very simple...well to you maybe LOL.

What exactly should I be taking to Kansas? I mean besides the obvious, what "extras" do I take to help the place feel more like "home"? It's odd that the things I'm debating the most are my kitchen appliances. It's odd how everything suddenly became more important, even though I don't use them as often as I should. Case in point...my KitchenAid mixer. I've used it mainly to make mashed potatoes...DELICIOUS mashed potatoes but still. I should be baking my ass off with it (which would be awesome), however, when you see the ingredients you have to buy and then the waste the product will be because you know you won't eat it all...it becomes a waste of time and money to bake. Mashed potatoes however, that's reason enough. Afterall, the only oven I will have in Kansas is a toaster oven! The other reason it's an issue...we have a few friends that will be taking some of our stuff, only for the time we're in KS. Isn't it strange how such things suddenly have meaning to you but only when it's possibly going to be used by someone else? I suppose that question has more connotations than a KitchenAid mixer, but you get the gist. I've also been accused of being a bit of a pack rat, I mean I did, within the last few months, finally get rid of all my notes/tests/projects/etc from, oh about 8th grade through college. Yes, it was a disaster but it's something to consider.

Anyway, seriously....Crock pot, blender, food processor, mixer, stock pot, wok, all my knives, my utensils....UGH. There is no storage in that hotel and no room, hence my dilemma. I know it's silly but it's just on my mind tonight, since I'm going to try and figure it all out tomorrow. Wish me luck...I will need it. Afterall, anyone that's sentimental/worried about a mixer obviously needs help. LOL

At home alone...

It's strange how one person leaves, with you soon to follow, but not for some time and the place suddenly...well...no longer feels like "home". I've been wanting all day to just pack everything up, get it all done, get the movers here early, and get it all moved to a storage facility. So, when the time comes, all I have to do is put what little I'm actually taking with me in the car and go. However, that's MUCH easier said than done. Plus, I'd be sleeping on the floor for the next 6 1/2 weeks, well actually, that may be better than the bed lol. Honestly, I wish this could happen but, I'm not even up to the task today. I've been laying around all day, depressed and, actually sick. Although I've come to realize this "illness" must be stress induced given the weekend. However, tomorrow is a new day. We'll see.

A Potpourri of Posts

I realize I haven't posted anything in quite some time. I can't really give a reason why except that I've been dealing with a lot given this move to Kansas and work, so I've just not felt very "bloggy" (?) lately. So the following are some random thoughts and observations that I've come across lately. I apologize in advance for a very lengthy post! It's really just a mix of everything lol....

1. I saw a woman tonight driving a scooter down Preston, in a dress and texting on her cell phone. Genius. Hey, at least she was wearing a helmet for when has an accident and, mark my words, she will have an accident. People can't even text while driving a car at 40mph, much less a freakin' scooter! Oh and let's not get into the fact she was driving a motorcycle-type vehicle in a dress...classy.

2. I'm feeling very sad and not all that physically well this weekend. It's not the best combo. I just keep telling myself, in two months, everything will be sorted out and we'll be able to move on as a unit again.

3. After putting in my notice at work, I'm thankful I'm leaving. I see it as a "kick in the pants"-type thing, primarily because I never looked at what I do as a career. It was to be a "stepping stone" to bigger and better things. At some point during the last 4 years, I found myself in a rut known as Windhaven. It's sad because I feel I've made amazing friendships there and they've given me A LOT as an employee. I guess you'd say it's bittersweet but completely for the best.

4. Speaking of Windhaven, many people have asked if I will go back to work there once we move back to the area. Well for starters, I'm not even sure we'll be living in the Dallas area but, more importantly, after recent events, I don't feel it's really an option. You see, once they sold the practice to a corporation, the "management" (if you can call it that) has found themselves under a budget in a less-than-stellar economy. At one time, I was offered a leave of absence and was told, on more than one occasion, that it was available to me. However, when bringing it up to said "management" during my review fairly recently, things got weird. I was told they would have to speak to this corporation regarding it. It's BS since this corporation is a "hands off" company, nothing has "changed" and Dr. Shuffield will continue to be the person hiring, etc. So I quickly realized that by me leaving, they will be saving over $1000 per month. I certainly hope that when "management" gets their bonus, they see my face stamped on it with a big "Fuck you". Sorry, this is in no way intended for the ONE person I feel is a manager and a friend...you know who you are should you read this. To her...I hope you see the light at the end of the tunnel and I'm always, always on your side. (As a side note, I'm not bitter, just aggravated with this place)

5. I have many people to train and, so far, I love the people that have been hired. I regret only having a month and half to get to know them.

6. Kansas? Of all the states in the US, it's one I've never even had the desire to visit and yet I'm moving there. Ok, granted it's only for 6 months but I will say this, there is a rhyme and a reason for everything. This too is part of the big picture, I will just take it as it comes and enjoy what I can. Who knows.

7. Scared Hitless, my softball team, has an official record of 1-4-1. Although we have that one game we tied, we're still tied for last place in the league since it doesn't count as a win. I have to say that since we stopped practicing, we've begun to really suck (for lack of a better word). I mean the worst team in the league beat us a couple of weeks ago. It was an embarrassment to say the least. I figure everyone deserves a win, I just wish it wasn't against us! As for practicing, many on the team won't commit to it so my opinion is...when we lose because we're sucking it up, those people that are bitching about the loss should think about actually practicing...those same people being the ones that can't commit. Frustrating really.

8. I've become increasingly frustrated with certain people on Facebook. I'm not even referring to those individuals that choose to support ignorant things by becoming a "fan" as previously blogged. Instead, I'm frustrated with some people that have become a "friend" but choose not to acknowledge my comments to things such as their pictures, etc. Perhaps I'm being silly, but I can't help but think that it has something to do with me, personally. A small aspect of my life that they disagree with, something so minuscule in the grand scheme of things regarding me as a person. If that's truly the case, I would just delete them because I have better friends than they ever were, regardless of the fact I've known this person (and been a true friend) since I was 5 years old. Aside from that person, I see a person commenting on others status', pics, etc that actually deleted me on Myspace. She even gave me a reason/lengthy message for deleting me on Myspace. I think it's HILARIOUS that she actually believes she's a "holier-than-thou person" given her past. I was deleted for being "something" I did not choose, however, I am the person I am and, not only have I accepted that, but the people I love and consider my "family" feel the same. That being said, I feel that the life I've lead is worthy of everything she says I'm not. It's unfortunate that a, literal, CRACK WHORE, thinks she's above me. She shall remain nameless but, I hope she knows, she too will be judged as she has judged me. Sad really. Speaking of judging, turnabout is fair play...I'm LITERALLY so much better than her, it makes me laugh. No one that reads this is that person I must say, some of you may be "friends" with her on FB though...beware.

9. I invite you to watch Tying The Knot and For The Bible Tells Me So. If you don't want to, that's ok, I don't judge you. I just figure given what was just blogged regarding someone that decided I was not worthy of being a friend, I'd give you the option to see the "other side". Please do not take offense, these are just two documentaries that I've seen where I can relate. I'm no crusader, it's just interesting to me.

10. last I heard North Korea was saying that the US was basically making a declaration of war against them (or something to that effect). However, the news has been overwhelmed with the deaths of Farah Fawcett and, more "notably" Michael Jackson. Can I just say, I'm SICK of seeing news reels and headlines regarding MJ's kid, Paris, crying and exclaiming what a great father he was, etc. It's sickening. The media needs to let it go. Yes, Michael Jackson will be more famous in death than life. Let it happen people, let it go. Unfortunately there is more going on with this world than the death of a pop star, regardless of his fame. Sad but true.